Well hell, here we go, la-de-fuckn’-dah, death and death again. Here’s what I’m going through and if you would please comment and tell me what you see and feel. I hear about the Western Black Rhino is now god damn mother fucking EXTINCT!! FUCK!! I think my bones are rattling. Yeah, yeah I know–what about the smaller little bugs and plants doing the same, yeah I know the big guys get all the attention, I get it but god dammit some things just ring bells in you head and heart that shake your guts up, like this shit.
I am writing about this cuz I’m afraid I’m getting too affected by the condition of planet earth. I live remotely and I guess you could say I get very insulated out here, sorta lopped off from the trends, happenings, the goods and the bads of civil life so maybe that’s what’s up. But it seems when I hear shit like this I get so fucked up about it and a feeling of impending doom seems to hover over me. I don’t like it.
Hey look, I wrote off recovery from the industrial world a long time ago, we’re fucked and about the only hope is that when we start to go we go quick, and more so that I ain’t here when it happens. I wanna live out my life in peace and harmony being some kinda nut out here in the wilderness unaffected by the FUCKING FUCKED UP HUMAN RACE AND ITS GOD DAMN I WANNA BE A RAP STAR AND BE FAMOUS SHIT AND CARRY A GUN ON MY HIP AND SHOOT ANY FUCKING ANIMAL THAT AIN’T GOT A GOD DAMN DAY LEFT ON EARTH!
But see, this stuff invades my little world and I suppose I could not get on the net and never listen to Navaho NPR (that’s all I get out here) and never go to my friend’s house while he’s watching TV or SOME GOD DAMN THING! I don’t know. But I do know this, it’s hell in a hand basket time and I guess if you’re one of those activist like I used to be then good fucking luck keeping your sanity and realize that if you are sane in the midst of all this you’re probably nuts.
It’s pain, I feel this pain and I guess I could be glad I feel it but FUCK NO! I don’t want to feel the kinda pain that witnessing social, environmental, cultural demoralization and devastation bring. No way. Get me outa here! Ah, whatever.